Songs…make me break down, even while driving. I have to pull over and cry.
Movies… depending on what they are can make my heart wrench…i get a physical pain in my chest.
Silence.. digs into me..and all the bad thoughts come forth and i just want to die all the time pretty much.
Things are getting to me.
I feel like I’m constantly having attacks of depression and suicidal thoughts.
I used to rely on one person to keep my grounded. Keep me alive. Keep me wanting to be alive.
And now i cant rely on him anymore.
It wasn’t right to rely solely on him anyway…
Trust me, if i could just get a couple minutes of courage, id be dead already.